Tomorrow never comes

2010-01-01T11:13:00.000-08:00

Hey all..

Amos here. :)

I know it's been awhile since i've updated my blog and most people have forgotten that i have one, but i just decided to type this one last post today.

Yep.. the last post.. Think of it as this blog's final dying breath. How ironic that it would be written on the first day of 2010.

Firstly, i would like to give my apologies to all those people who were waiting for me to update my blog.. reply to tags... etc..
Im really sorry.
This blog died due to various reasons, such as
1.i was really busy as i had transferred school AGAIN and was drowning in schoolwork.
2.I didn't really now what to blog about, seeing that my life in Shanghai was pretty dull.
3.I was depressed at that time, and didnt want to worry all you people during your exam period.
4. China blocked blogspot. and facebook. and youtube. and twitter.. Myspace... -_-

So yeah. Blame China.

In case you all didnt know, i've been in Singapore since 19 Dec. Maybe you might have seen me in ANE camp.. or Malaysia.. or in one of Chasper's outings. Or maybe you were too busy working to realise i was back. i dont blame you.
Just know that i leave tomorrow. And the next time you see me, things will not be the same.
Change is constant.
And change is what i have observed. Alot has changed in one year. Some for the better, others for worse. Some of the people i thought i knew have become strangers to me, while people i didnt think twice about ended up being like a brother.

Change is inevitable, but that doesn't mean i have to like it.

Some people can't help but live in the past, and unfortunately, i'm one of them. The future is just too scary.

But still, this has been an enjoyable two weeks in Singapore. To me, it was like coming home. Staying in my old house, going out with friends, staying at Chasper's, joking around with them... I will treasure these memories forever, corny as it might sound.

After all, what are we but a collection of memories and past experiences?

I really enjoyed myself. I MADE SURE i enjoyed myself. Because the next time i return (IF i return) things will be different. I might not even see some of you again... you all being busy with schoolwork and all that.
And PLEASE don't say stuff like "oh i'll definitely make time for you next time" unless you mean it. Words are cheap. I prefer actions.

After seeing how much as changed in a year, i wonder how things will be like in 2.. 3.. 5... years...
Food for thought.
Much as it pains me, i have to put an end to this wonderful dream, this joyous reunion, to go back to a place i detest. Life is full of bullshit.
But i know that i cannot stay..
partly due to my studies, partly due to my family.. but mainly because there is nothing left for me here.
True, this is my home, and forever will be my home. But this chapter in life is drawing to a close, even as we move on. I somewhat agree with what Chasper said, that it was better for me to leave early. Better to preserve the magic and memories than to let it stagnate and sour.

If you, dear reader, are just some random person who stumbled upon my blog and don't get a single shit of what im saying, just bear with me. Understand how painful it is to return to your home to find that it has changed, and will continue to change, and that you cannot stay.
You might think overly dramatic. So be it. I'm just trying to put these pent-up emotions into words.

To all my friends, i sincerely thank you. For the memories, the experiences, the lessons we learnt together and for believing and trusting in me. I only wish that i was an equally good friend to you. Forgive me my flaws, i can't help it. I just hope you can accept them, as i try to accept yours.

I too have changed in this one year, for better or for worse.

Well... tomorrow morning i board the plane to return to Shanghai. And over time, i will be drowning in homework.. struggling to adapt... So please forgive me if i dont have time to reply you on msn.. or if i seem distant. It's not that i want to.. but circumstances force me.

After coming back to Singapore, i realise how much i've missed this place. The thought that has been in my mind ever since i touched down was "I'm home.. I'm finally home". I regret not cherishing those times when i stayed here. I was always discontent.. ungrateful... now i realise how lucky i was. To stay in such a wonderful country... with such wonderful friends..

Tomorrow i leave. And it will be a more painful departure than that of last year. Because this time i realise how much i've lost..
Time waits for no one.

God bless you all.

Until next time... =)

2009-04-11T02:29:00.000-07:00

Was sifting through my collection of photos from the past 3 years and i came across some fond memories.

Suddenly i realise..
Those days are gone, possibly never to return.

Whoa.

Time goes by, words fade away and only these empty pictures remain.

To whom it may concern.... =D

My only regret is that i didn't take more photos...

2009-04-11T01:59:00.000-07:00

Part 7 (At last)

Well here are all the pictures that i took during my previous trip to ChongMing island.
There are more, but i didn't want to post pictures of my family or other ppl without their permission...

2009-04-11T01:46:00.000-07:00

A heavy fog showed up last night, So we couldn't go to ChongMing Island as planned.

-.-

Oh well.

2009-04-06T02:32:00.000-07:00

Part 6

Me first mE FIRST!!!

2009-04-06T02:20:00.000-07:00

Part 5

Chased the rabbit around its cage, trying to take a picture of it.

"Who's this retard who keeps running after me with a camera...." - Rabbit

Beautiful scenery huh?

XD

2009-04-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

Part 4

Pictures of the farmhouse

And of my room...

And of some Ducks freezing their butts off.

2009-04-04T05:33:00.000-07:00

Woodwork museum

2009-03-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

Part 2

After the exhilarating car ride and nearly freezing my nose off, we dumped our baggage at the farmhouse and went to our first stop. It was some historical site marking some historical event...

But naturally, who cares?

Took some photos of frozen water (as in lake water, not ice cubes. idiot.)
Took some photos of some swans... or geese... or very white and pretty chickens.

People playing with stilts... (not my parents, HONEST. =P)

Though it was kinda boring there, the nice scenery and weather more than made up for it.

My hair is now almost twice as long as that in the photo.

If i'm in the picture, who's holding the camera? 0.0

2009-03-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

All right....
FINALLY! Picture time....

Since i took so many pictures throughout the trip, i had no choice but to separate them into different parts, for fear that uploading too many will cause the com to explode.

Please remember that these pictures are long overdue and thus i no longer look like that guy in the photos.
For starters, my hair is a LOT longer. And i gained weight. Like 2 kg.
Wee.

Part 1

Took these on the way to the farmhouse.
My dad actually let me stand up through the skylight(if that's what its called) of the car and snap pictures...
Cool huh?
-4 degrees celcius cool.

2009-03-14T21:06:00.000-07:00

Day 68 of my stay in Shanghai. How time flies.

Looking back, i can only wonder with wide-eyed awe...

How can anyone squeeze so much misery, pain, discouragement, depression yet hope into little less than 70 days?

Needless to say, these past few months probably contain as much emotional ups and downs as the past 15 years of my life.

Its like one day i wake up with a grey sky, heavy steps and empty heart, whereas the next day i awake with hesitant but insistant hope, like sun breaking through storm clouds.

It's kinda being on a roller-coaster, without the throwing up...

But no, i won't give up. I won't let myself down anymore. I'm kind of getting sick of that.
To hell with circumstances. Circumstance does not define who i am.

Oh sure, some of you might think i'm joking or playing around. People who come here for the first time would probably think, 'Hey chill man. Dude this is one sorry depressed suicidal kid."
or "Hey c'mon it can't be that bad right?"

Hey you walk in my shoes first, and then comment. Pitiful little kid i am huh?

Life is full of black and white and different shades of grey.
so?

Heaven on earth is but a dream, no one said anything about easy.
So?

You're stuck in that damn tunnel and its like the light at the end went out.
SO?

Hope.
Thats what the little black book by my bedside tells me.
So that's what i'm going to do.

:)
To no-one in particular,
Save your pity for someone who doesn't deserve it.

That pretty much sums up the state of my emotions throughout my stay in Shanghai so far.

Up and Down and Round and Round....

No i haven't gone cukkoo... Nearly, but not quite.

I'm just really, really, really... well...
Tired, depressed, drained, hopeful, expectant, dreading, exhausted, strengthened, lethargic, alert, vexed, disenchanted, discontented, disoriented... The list goes on and on...

Thankfully, i'm much better now as compared to a few weeks ago...
Things are considerably less crazy now. Hence i can squeeze some time to post...

A big favour for Dexter who's too lazy to read essay-length posts.

Part 1: School life
Part 2: Family life
Part 3: Social life

Part 1:
School food sucks. They scoop it out of a bucket and gloops it on your tray. It might even be an exotic species of jellyfish, seeing how it moves..

But i heard its great compared to other schools... So i'm wondering why Shanghai's population density is decreasing...

Apart from food, the school's alright i guess. Classes are conducted in 'English' and lessons are the usual boring you find in Singapore...

What's different is that most of the students here bunk in the school, so they're really close and friendly.

Towards each other, that is...

Class size is generally smaller than that of Singapore, with a range of ages from 14-18 in my class.

I sit all the way in front as i'm so short... -.-

And i STILL haven't gotten my ugly uniforms yet. Did i mention students have to wear blue-green tracksuits every tuesday to thursday?

Discipline here is really slack as compared to CCKss. It's real cool to listen to music and watch anime during class time.

Schools here organise lame events too. Just this week the school organised an "idol" contest.

I think they wanted to help the students de-stress.

We people in the audience sure felt de-stressed when the Singing finally stopped.

A few of us ran out of the auditorium screaming, when these two girls went on-stage to sing "Doraemon".

My school days are now spent playing badminton, basketball, staying awake during lessons and trying get people to understand my horrible Chinese...

This past week was spent revising for my monthly test. Here they have a subject test once a month. My final exams are still quite a long way off, but so are the holidays.

I'm getting 2 month's worth of holidays in June... So i guess it'll be worth the wait. You guys back in Singapore are having your March holidays now right?

Enjoy...

Part 2
The past few days have been kind of hectic, hence my family doesn't go out that much. Not that we usually go out... My Sis' and I have school on weekdays and our weekends are spent on homework. The only time we go out is for church or for cell group. Or when i go for my Saturday morning run.

I'm still looking around for a suitable church and youth group. Apparently i haven't found any. :/

My Dad's boss is in town, so he's kind of stressed up right now. But that's nothing compared to my Sis. Her Promotion exam's next week.

My house is pretty much in a mess right now, with boxes all over the place and no time to clear them out. I think we're hoping they'll somehow grow legs and fly away.
AND we still haven't bought some necessary furniture...

Top that up with various family problems and squabbles...

Part 3

Not much actually. Gets kinda lonely at times.

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I realise i haven't yet uploaded my pictures from the ChongMing island trip a month ago...

Since there are so many and i think this post has gotten quite long enough, i'll upload them some other time.

Besides, i'll be going there again in April!

I guess that's all for now. My blog will just have to look like it got paint spashed on it... at least until i find a nicer skin.

My tagboard will still look like i haven't been feeding it regularly...

I'll still wake up everyday feeling a little empty inside...

So many things have changed...

Yet so many things stay the same...

One day at a time then... One day at a time...

2009-02-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

No, Grace, I'm not dead yet. -.-

Wow it seems like an eternity since i've last posted...

Nearly 3 weeks in fact. Well you get the idea how busy it has been for me. School Starts at 7.30 and ends at 4.30 everyday. Add in homework, projects, an occasional make-up lesson...
Youth group on Saturdays, Church on Sundays...

Its not my fault i couldn't post k?

Anyone forget me already?

Well my 3 weeks so far...

For a first day of school, things kind of got off to a bad start. Well for starters, everyone speaks chinese here.
And my chinese sucks.
Everyday i'm reminded how sucky it is... -.-

And.. the school gave me uniforms a few sizes too big.
So i don't have school uniforms now...
On the bright side, i can wear home clothes to school.

So things didn't really start off that well. Sucky Chinese means a really quiet Singapore boy sitting in the front row of class. -.-
Damn. Can't believe i miss laughing like a mad idiot...

Oh well.
I guess things are getting better now.
At least i'm getting used to the school and stuff.
Since i'm stuck here, might as well enjoy it right?
I don't think anyone's gonna fly here from Singapore to save me... Right?
Hint Hint.

Update on other stuff...
I finally have internet access now, though i'm still using my dad's laptop.
My new room rocks as i have my own balcony, but its used to hang laundry.
And the weather is turning warmer now. Good riddance to winter, but i don't have any summer clothes. -.-

And i'm forced to wake up early every Saturday morning for... Guess what?
Chinese Tuition.

This would be so funny if it weren't happening to me....

I know its kinda late, but happy Valentine's day to everyone!
Hope you enjoy it while i'm all alone here...
Go on... rub it in...

Well i hope everyone's doing fine back in Singapore, good luck for your O'levels.
And let bygones be bygones, bear no grudges eh?
Life's too short to be wasted on hate...

I'll try to post soon... like maybe in another 3 weeks time. -.-

Sorry for not replying to all those emails, i'll get around to them soon.. I promise. Maybe in yet another 3 weeks time.

Hopefully i can upload my pics from the ChongMingDao trip...
Haven't been taking much pictures lately, my phone's memory has reached its limit.

Take care now.

2009-02-02T22:37:00.000-08:00

Update on what's been happening so far...

- My family has gotten a house, moving tomorrow.

That means no internet access for a few days, maybe even a week. =(
And that means i might not be able to reply emails etc...

I'll be living on the other side of Shanghai, near my future school.
Walking distance, in fact.

And my school term starts next monday... =/
One more week to go...

That's all for now then, i'll try to upload pics of my trip next time.

I haven't forgotten~

2009-01-28T22:22:00.000-08:00

Hi guys (and girls.) , I'm Back!
So Celebrate!!!!

Whooo.
K ignore that. I'm still in the festive mood of Chinese Niu Year! Amidst the sound of continuous never-ending firecracker explosions and ear-piercing cries and shouts of joy from people celebrating the new year, I can't help but feel that something's missing.

Angpows.

Lmao. Joking joking... =D
Of course, what i obviously wanted to say (er-hem) was 'Friends'!
Oh well... I've made some new friends here too... =D
I'm really great chums with Snoopy the dog, and I'm an intimate friend and soulmate to my dad's laptop...

Okok.. jokes aside.. I hope everyone is having an enjoyable Chinese new year and one day's holiday. Hate to break it to you guys... BUT WE HAVE ONE WEEK OF HOLIDAYS HERE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

And before you press alt-F4 and think of what a chinese A*hole i've become, I just want to say this..
-I absolutely miss you guys and would gladly exchange this 1 week holiday to have fun with you all again
-I honestly hope you all have enjoyed your Chinese New Year celebrations
-I definitely hope that you have received more angpow money than me
-AND I sincerely thank you guys for flooding my tagboard.

I feel SO appreciated. =P

Ok you can press alt-F4 now and go do something worthwhile with your time.
OR
You could read on about my trip to ChongMingDao.
Not much of a choice, really..
(Subtitles and pictures not included, please add your own background music and kindly fasten your seatbelts.)

Cheers~

-Day one-
It was a dark and cold morning. The icy wind whistled through the trees, causing branches to creak and leaves to rustle. A gloomy mist hung in the air, daring the foolish and beckoning the brave to venture into its depths.
In a dimly-lit apartment down the deserted street, a restless sleeper arose and confronted the coming dawn with steely eyes and a determined gaze. Today was the day.

Ok.
In other words, I woke up and it was cold.
Ha. Ha. So dramatic.

K i'll stop the melodrama and cut the crap..
But seriously, you guys are enjoying this right? =D
Don't expect more, being creative is tiring..

Alright, I woke up. What's next?
Well... get changed, brush teeth, quiet-time and all the usual stuff.
Then my family got in the car and went to meet up with the 3 other families.
After we met up, we drove on to the ferry terminal. Nothing much interesting happening except some problems with my Dad's GPS.
After parking the car ON the ferry, we took a one-hour trip to clever island.
Alight, drive to inn.. blah blah..
Had lunch at the Inn, it rocked my socks. For Shanghainese food, these were superb.
Oh yeah i forgot to mention it was sub-zero temperature there, so imagine me was shivering and chattering throughout the trip.
And the water in the lakes were all frozen over, so we could skid stones over the surface of the lake.
Too bad the ice was too thin. Would have liked to go ice-skating.
Next we went to some historical site. Historical means old, damp and smelly.
Played with some stilts and stuff... -.-
Yeah, how fun.
Next up was a trip to the museum of wood sculptures. Real spooky.
Imagine walking through a dimly-lit museum alone with wooden dragons, phoenixes and buddhas staring at you. Oooh.
We were supposed to go to an animal farm after that, but it was closed as the management was out celebrating CNY. Slackers. NO angpow for you.
Went back to the inn, turned out that i was assigned to bunk with an uncle from our group. Nice guy. We sat on our beds and watched Tv. -.-
Ate a sumptious dinner, showered (hot) and watched Tv till I slipped into dreamland.

+Day two+

It was a dark and cold morning. The icy wind...
Just kidding.

I woke up, it was cold.
Went for a sumptious breakfast, then proceeded to the animal zoo.
More like an animal prison.
Dogs, monkeys, eagles, horses, goats kept in enclosed rusty cages with no water (frozen). =/
Oh well. If i freed all the animals, i don't think my mom would be very happy. She's fine with the animals being in their cages.
My Sis rode on the horses. I think the horse looked like it was bored to death.
Ate sumptious lunch.
Next stop was some place called the forest park.
I was thinking, Oh no i bet this is just another boring plac where we can see some trees and taste some fruits.
Was i wrong.
Firstly, the place is HUGE. Like very very very very Ginormously hUgE

Secondly, the scenery and landscape was beautiful. And i had a camera =D. Seriously breathtaking stunning awe-inspiring heart-stopping impressive magnificent overwhelming stunning thrilling and all the other words on Dictionary.com
In other words... wait i think i used all the other words.
I'll upload the pics some other time. =D
Wait.. It gets even better.

Thirdly, I had a bike.
Well we rented some. So with the breeze ruffling my hair and soothing Chinese music playing in the background, I cycled through the park.
For almost 3 whole hours. =D
There were hill paths, lakeside paths, paths in the middle of a forest...

Ok, i cycled for 3 hours partly because i got lost, so i started wandering around till i crashed into someone.
But still, it was the most fun i've had in a long time. If only there were friends cycling with me, but its alright, I enjoyed the silence and serenity.
Its nice to be with yourself and rest and reflect once in a while.. ;D
Alright... it got a little boring later on. But only a little. =D

There were many other activities too, like paint-ball and go-kart racing, but we didn't have the time to try them all. I enjoyed myself anyway.
I hope to go back again during spring or autumn. =D
That would rock. I'm not wearing socks now.

Oh yeah, while cycling with the group of families, we stumbled (or crashed into) what seemed like a garden maze.
Well it was a garden maze.
So we tried it.
And what happens in mazes?
Yep. We got lost.
But considering that we were already lost, it didn't really matter.
Getting lost is fun. =D

Following that was dinner (just as sumptious) and we played with some firecrackers. No one died, especially not me. And i'm not black and burnt. So everything's fine. Right? Or did you want me to be burnt. Cruel.
Then back home we went.

-The End-

For the trip, at least.
I've still got other things to say, so bear with me. I know you all are just dying to know all about my life here right? Stalkers.
Alright. For starters, I'm all better now. No more fever at least.
Still having a slight cough and stuff, but i'm alright.
Though i am getting fat. 3 weeks of no exercise and Fine dining is taking its toll on me. Ok i'll have to start training. Soon. Like maybe next year.

Another thing, from now on i'll just post on remarkable or special events k? Because if i were to post about everyday it would be a boring repetition of boring stuff.
Basically, right now my family is looking to rent a house near the school. So i'll be out alot this week. Which means lesser time on the com. Boohoo. Live with it.
=D

Still looking for a nice apartment though. Plus affordable.

Ok another memorable event.
Yesterday i went to a park.
A huge park.
But not as big as the one on clever island.
And i didn't have a bike.
BUT i did have the camera =D.
Again, i'll post the pics some other time. I can't find the wire for the cam. =P

As i type this post, i glanced to the side and realised that the scroll bar has become really, really small. Not a good sign. =P
Ok well i guess that's all for now.

Take care everyone. All the best in your studies and stuff!
=)

2009-01-24T14:30:00.000-08:00

Down with Flu and some throat infection..
=(

Won't be posting the next few days as i'll be going to the island.

Miss me.

2009-01-21T16:01:00.000-08:00

Woah i haven't posted for nearly a week...

Really sorry to all my loving fans out there...
I really was very busy. Only had enough computer time to reply to some emails...
And i'll only get busier when school reopens... =(

Ah well..
If i haven't posted anything for awhile, i'm still alive k? Hope i can go online more often...

My week so far.

Well lets see... On Friday i went to a dinner organised by some church friends to celebrate my Dad's 50th birthday. Played with a dog there, turns out my family will be taking care of snoopy(the dog) for a week while that family is away.

On Saturday i spent my morning at home. That evening i went to a church youth group for the first time. It was quite fun, met new people... Looks like i'll be going there every Saturday then.

Sunday morning i went to church, then went to lunch at some restaurant with some Church people... Tried some peanut butter icecream..The ice kachang here is HUGE~

On Monday i spent my whole day at home and during the night my family followed my dad to some company dinner. Apparently Shanghai people has an obsession with eating animal guts and skin... The meal had LOTS of pig intestines, guts, tongue, skin and other stuff i don't wish to know...
Needless to say i didn't eat much.

Yesterday i woke up early to go to my Dad's office. Seems like i'm following him everywhere these days.. Oh well? There's nowhere else to go and noone else to go out with.. =(
After having lunch at the office, my dad brought my family for a haircut.

Now.. i haven't cut my hair since last year dunno when.. so i thought best give it a try..
Do i regret it. The "Professional" barber cut my hair so damn short...
Damn... Can someone teach me how to swear in chinese? Anyone...please?

Apparently china barbers are just as lousy as Singaporean ones..
Oh well.. it'll grow back. Hope it grows faster though. Don't want to meet my new classmates looking like a complete *&#$...

For today, i've spent the whole day at home.. And i'm so sick of studying.
Can't something happen around here? Explosions or anything... -.-

Anyways tomorrow i'll be going to do my health check-up at some China hospital (God save me.)
If they start poking needles into me and chopping off my limbs, i'll kill them first.
Anyways, i'll have to do a blood test and some other stupid uncomfortable check-ups.
Well AT LEAST there's something for me to do... nevermind if i have no time to use the com.

After the check-up tomorrow, my Dad'll be bringing the family to PuDong to find a house. Hope we'll get one soon... I'm kinda tired of sharing a room with my dad. He snores.

Recently i've been to many people's houses and they are like massive..
Some of them have like one toilet per room, 3 stories and their own personal gym, walk-in closet and home theatre. Like wow.
Maybe add in an observatory, swimming pool and helipad and it'll be complete huh?

Then on Sunday, we all will set off to ChongMingDao. Uh.. clever island? Wierd name...
My family will be travelling with 3 other families, taking a boat there and staying overnight at a farmhouse. Hope that doesn't mean i'll be sleeping with cows...
Hope can play with some firecrackers and fireworks. =) Will take some pics...
And hope i come back alive, not burnt and black and on a stretcher. =D

Well i guess that's all for now.. Since there's nothing else happening around here and everyone back in Singapore is busy with studies..

2009-01-15T11:25:00.000-08:00

Good morning!

K at least its morning now... I don't have school yet remember? School starts on Feb 7th i think..

Or have i said so before?

K nvm... the problem here is that nothing much happens, so i tend to repeat myself in my posts..
Just bear with me.

In 3 weeks this blog will be full of complaints about school, teachers and China people...

Hope not.

So I hope everybody's doing fine back in Singapore... I haven't forgotten you guys k? =P
Damn i miss the nice weather back there.. Here there's only two types of weather
- Cold and Very Cold

And it gets dark too early... the sun starts to set at 3+...

Hmm well these few days i've been staying in the house as my dad has to go to work. This is kinda my schedule everyday..

9:00 wake up
9.30 Study ( supposedly, but here i am blogging. )
12:00 Lunch
1:00 Study
5:00 Fight with sis over com
7:00 Dinner
8:30 Wash dishes
9:30 Com/Tv/Shower ( Not at the same time)
11:00 Sleep

Every single day... If this goes on i think i'll be dying for school to open...

Apart from this boring routine, i do go out sometimes...

On Tuesday i went for another entry test at Shanghai United International School. I know i've already been accepted into the school i want, but my parents thought 'no harm trying right?'
I thought it'd be over quickly as i was only going to be tested on my english.
I mean, no cake right?

Wrong. The english paper was Crazily Obscenely tough... I was thinking, is this even for high school students?
The paper consisted of..
1000 word essay on leadership
Add in punctuation and correct proper usage of words to a paragraph
Identify and form complex and compound sentences from the paragraph
Continue the story using given keywords
Listening comprehension

Wth... no multiple choice?

Oh well.. spent 2 hours in the examination room.. =P

Apart from taking that exam, nothing much has been happening this week.
Just started revision for A-maths, hope to complete in time before school reopens.

And yeah, this Friday's (tomorrow) my Dad's 50th birthday! WOoO.. So i think i'll be going to some party organised for him..
Cheers

K, due to the lack of interesting things to say, i shall end here.
Good luck everyone for your studies, take care now. Do email me if you have the time =)

2009-01-12T21:56:00.000-08:00

Woah i haven't posted anything in ages. You all must be wondering if i've frozen to death or something...
Well i'm not dead yet, though i AM kinda frozen.

-3 degrees here.. =) Well, at least i'm starting to get used to the weather here. Hmm k let me talk about my previous week.

The previous week was hectic, had to follow my family around for many school visits, to go buy our winter clothing and stuffs.

Just last saturday i went to Ping He International school for my entrance test. Was tested on their sec-4 topics, think i fared quite well. For the english and sciences at least.. =) I left the entire Math's paper blank. In case you all didn't know, this school is quite well-known (i guess not, if you haven't heard of it.) and of quite a high standard. I'm not bragging, in case you're mistaken. High standard means more studying.
=(

Haiz i passed the test, surprisingly. Thank God. Since i'm admitted into the 2nd half of their sec-4 level, i'll have lots of catching up to do... and on top of that their syllabus is totally different from us. =s

As for the school campus, its quite run-down, a little like Cckss actually.. =) Well, they have a swimming pool and com lab at least, so its not too bad. I'm just happy i got into a better school than the previous one..

AND my two sisters are in the same school as me. Whoo.

Ok enough about schools and tests, makes me feel depressed. Hmm apart from school visits, my dad brought my family to various local eateries and restaurants. Must say the food here is not bad, though i kena stomachache alot of times. What'd they do? Pick their noses before serving the food? Hygiene sucks. Oh well, Welcome to China! It isn't that bad.

On Sunday we went to an international church in some hotel, had to check passports before entering the room. Seems like religion is pretty restricted around here..
After church went to some Dim Sum restaurant and then to a HUGE pet store where my sister went crazy.. Over the dogs, at least. The store also sold iguanas, tarantulas, scorpions, alligators and other exotic pets.. Cool huh?
Keep a pet scorpion and whenever you pet it, you get sent to hospital. ;)

Hmm anyways, until my dad finds a house, my family is staying with a family friend Uncle K.C. He's quite a nice guy, very caring and all that. =) Great cook.
So my family's in good hands.

Woah till here i realise i'm kinda writing an essay. =P But seriously, nothing much has been happening around here. Shanghai is so BIG that most of my time is spent in the car, on the road. Or sleeping. =) Cold weather makes me real sleepy.

Well how's everyone back in Singapore? Hope you all are doing fine. Heard that the O'level results are being released today.. Hope you all got the marks you wanted. Always remember that there is always another chance. =) Don't give up, no matter how daunting the task may be k?

Someone (famous guy that i haven't heard of) once said

Try once, fail once, no matter.
Try again, fail again, Fail better.

Cool it rhymes.. I can rhyme too! Sally sells seashells on the seashore.. K nvm...

Chinese New Year's coming!!!

Sadly, i can't collect ang pows this year. Left all of them in M'sia... Can i collect 3 1/2 year's worth of Angpows in 2011?

For Chinese new year, my dad's bringing the family to some island near China named ChongMingDao or something like that. I hope i haven't typed in anything offensive in chinese.. =P

Clever island? UH ok... cute..

K i guess that's all for now. Will try to come online to blog more often, but i'm not sure if i'll have the time. Keep in touch.

Slowly but surely...

2009-01-08T22:10:00.000-08:00

Hmm k... what to post, what to post?

Its quite difficult to post when nothing's been going on... Well, nothing interesting at least..

Life can be so boring without friends around you.

Well let me start by saying... ITS FREAKING COLD HERE.
In Shanghai the weather tends to get really cold around wintertime.(duh)
To survive, the natives here have to dress up as giant fishballs to ward off the cold.
Also, these natives shout and talk loudly, and engage in various quarrels over small insignificant matters, to warm themselves up.
These natives also chain-smoke and practice dangerous driving, all to keep the blood flowing..

And that's what i've experienced the past few days.

Apart from that, my days are spent shopping for winter clothing, viewing schools and going grocery shopping. As Shanghai is really big, i spend most if my time in the car, and only reach home late at night, tired, worn-out, cold and without energy to move, let alone blog...

Oh well, i hope things will quiet down the next few days, and that i'll have the time to send out some emails and post properly.. Even now, my eyes are half-open and my mind is in dreamland..

The cold weather here makes me VERY lethargic and sleepy, hence this disorganised and messy post..

Anyways, i haven't forgotten about you guys back in Singapore k?
Hope you guys remember me.

I'll try to post some pictures soon, but trust me, Shanghai's nothing special... =/

These few days
Its like a dream.. or a nightmare..
And i want to wake up.
Yet..
i want to continue dreaming, just to see how it ends...

2009-01-06T23:20:00.000-08:00

Just to notify you all, I've reached safely. I know its a little late, but my day was pretty busy. Really tired now as i didn't sleep last night and couldn't sleep on the plane... Thanks to all those who sent me off. Take care everyone, don't forget me k? =)

Freezing cold here. =( Can't feel my toes...

Really tired, will post more 2mr if hv the chance...

Stay tuned...

With an aching in my heart, where the cold wind blows...

2009-01-06T01:32:00.000-08:00

Well... My last day in Singapore is finally over. Sighs...

Hard to believe i'll be leaving this morning. And that i won't be back for such a long time. Sigh i'll really miss this place...

Well i guess i'll talk about my day. To say the least, it was Bittersweet.

Alot of touching things happened today (yesterday, today, who cares), yet alot of discouraging and unhappy events too.

Well, i woke up in the morning (no more maids this time) before my alarm clock went off. I Skipped breakfast and spent the whole morning moving more boxes around the house. I also had to dismantle some furniture and do lots of cleaning up.

Funny thing about the dismantling furniture part. Kinda happened like this. LOL more of these nonsense... =)

Amos: Ok lets go dismantle the double-decker bed!

Dad: lets see.. Hm this screw needs a screwdriver to remove. (like duh)

Amos: Well thats fine, lets take out the Trusty'ol toolbox. (exaggerated)

Dad: I thought it was with you?

Amos: No, its with you.

Amos/Dad: Great. We packed the toolbox.

So much for planning ahead.

As we were too lazy to look for the toolbox, we decided to borrow one from the neighbours. Problem solved. And the neighbour's maid (Rmb her?) called along some other maids, till our house was full of maids helping with the moving, packing and cleaning. Talk about timely arrivals. =)

Well i was covered with sweat and grime by 3 o'clock. Showered and went to Cdans to join some friends to play badminton for the last time. Saw a few people i recognised on the bus.

Well, i arrived at the court to find them all playing... Monopoly. Wth. book court for what.

Well played a few games, didn't really have much fun.

You know, it can get really frustrating at times. It seems like the more i try, the more you push me away. Fine, so be it. After today i won't have to worry about it anymore.

Yeap, didn't enjoy my Last Game much. Well on the bright side, i received many farewell-gifts from my friends, which i had to lug home along with my bag and racket after a long tiring sweaty game of badminton. How thoughtful.

No seriously, thanks for all the gifts.
I will treasure all of them. Hope to see you all again real soon...=(

Another touching thing that happened. Chasper and Wenyi decided to charter a bus to Changi airport, so as to send me off. Wow. What great friends... Honestly, i was pretty skeptical when you all suggested it. Thanks, it really means alot to me. This proves 2 people wrong. First is my mom and the second should know who he/she is... for doubting friendship.

Wow thats alot of praise for friendship.

Still have one more.

Dexter actually came all the way from Panjang to Timah Cc, just to pass me the gifts. Wow.. i know its nothing really, but it leaves an impression k? =)

For those who can't send me off... Its alright, you have your reasons... We'll keep in touch.

After dinner with Chasper and meeting up with Dexter, i arrived home to find my house sparkly clean and nearly empty. With all the boxes cleared, my house looks huge. =) Maybe i should leave it this way, looks much nicer. Well, soon after, my uncle arrived to stay overnight. He would then send the family over to Changi airport the next morning.

There my family would eat breakfast with some of my friends for the last time, then its bon voyage. Hope they won't be late for school...
Tell Mr Kong that all their buses and Mrts broke down. At the same time.

Well, since my uncle is sleeping in my room, i have nowhere to sleep. Answer to this problem? Don't sleep. Simple. Which is what i'm doing now. AND ITS SO DAMN BORING. Now you know why i don't like staying up late? No one's online, the house is so quiet and there's nothing to do. My family sold the Tv and my radio away...=(

Well, only 3 more hours to go till everyone wakes up. Hope i don't fall asleep halfway and drool on my Dad's laptop. "snore.. snore.. drool..BZZT short circuit." I need to use it for the next few months... Why? look at the previous paragraph.

Well, that was and is my day so far. Just finished chatting with kenneth and Jk, had an interesting and really crappy talk. Now i'm pretty much counting down the hours alone till i leave. Sigh.

This is not farewell, its merely until we meet again.

I'll miss Singapore
I'll miss Bukit timah
I'll miss Cckss
I'll miss Ncc, 1/5 '06, 2/5 '07, 3/7 '08, 4/7 '09
I'll miss my friends
And i really can't help it, but i'll miss you.

2009-01-04T18:12:00.000-08:00

Woke up to someone banging on my front door. Feeling sleepy and with one foot still in dreamland, i decided to ignore it and hope the knocking went away.

The knocking continued... and continued... and freaking hell continued... Until finally the sound of "AMOS!!!! ARE YOU IN??? OPEN THE DOOR PLEEEESE!" filled my room.

Damn...

Figures that I'd start off a Sunday like that..
Turns out that the person banging on my front door was my neighbor's maid. Eyes half open and head spinning, i stumbled out of my room and went to the door.

Amos: Who're you...?
Maid: AIYA I'm your neighbor lah! Dunno ME Issit?
Amos: ... (stares blankly)
Maid: You know... Upstairs? Eh I've known you for YEARS!
Amos: Oh... Oh. (Wasn't listening)
Maid: Anyways, I've brought a few friends! (Few other maids pop out.)
Amos: Oh... That's nice...
Maid: They wanna take a look at the stuff!
Amos: ... (Stares blankly again)
Maid: You know... the garage sale?
Amos: ... ( stares blankly yet again)
Maid: So open the door.
Amos: WHAT ITS AT MY HOUSE?

So I'm really blur when i wake up... Turns out my parents didn't tell me they were having another garage sale this morning. While they were in church. Leaving me to deal with a handful of bargain-hungry maids...
Half an hour later...

Maid: Thanks Amos! We're not buying anything yet, but we'll be back later ok?
Amos: Groan...

Ok so i wasn't being a very good host... but YOU try entertaining guests immediately after you wake up.

And that was my morning.

Well for the rest of today, I've been moving boxes to and fro around the house, getting myself drenched in sweat and years-old dust and doing other odd jobs around the house. Hard to believe I've only 2 days left till i leave for good. Time flies too fast... =(

Oh well, Que Sera Sera..

Now my house has basically been stripped bare... All the shelves and wardrobes are empty. And its totally cluttered with boxes. To get to the toilet i have to jump over and walk around almost 4 boxes, some of them my height. Cool, can play Hide-and-seek.

Now i realize how big my house is.
When everything is gone, then you realize how much you really had. =P

Well, tomorrow maybe going out for badminton if i can contact Jialun, and I'll be meeting up with some friends and my Ncc mates in the evening.

Then its back home to hand all the boxes over to the forwarder and all my work would be done.

I'm going to have to wake up early on Tuesday morning, as I'll be taking the 7+ flight.
Anyone wants to send me off?

Well that's all for today..
2 days left, and its not something i want to count down with you...

2009-01-02T22:44:00.000-08:00

Well, today was my first and last day at school.
A little ironic huh... All my classmates are getting ready for the new school term while i can still slack away.

Well, when i reach Shanghai that's all going to change. I'm going to have to really STUDY and REVISE like mad... something i don't usually do much. Sian.. not looking forward to it but its necessary if i want to excel there. I wouldn't want to waste such an opportunity, as Dihao puts it... =)

Good friends can really help put things in perspective.

I might not like it there or want to go, but "begin with the end in mind" says Mdm Prema... :P Though i wasn't paying attention during the motivational talk, that part makes sense... So I'm going to think of my Diploma whenever i get sick of studying...
"diploma.... diploma..."

I know i'll miss my friends and all that, but unfortunately this life is all about change and separation... Makes you wish there's more to life than this huh?

At least i know that i have people back in Singapore that i can depend on and trust in...

Well, about my day...

Like i said, i went to school today. Actually i woke up late and contemplated whether i should go, but decided to in the end. Would make a nice surprise right? =)

It was a pretty boring and dull day in school, with Ms Sim giving her record-holding super long speech and Mdm Asmahan choosing the class commitee. DEDRICK FOR MONITOR! There was also a motivational talk by the language dept... Seems like all the teachers are psycho-ing us to study hard. People are already starting to feel the pressure....

And i have one more month's worth of holidays! Makes me feel a little bad.
Oh well, it'll be my turn to suffer soon. D:

Well after school was Cca. It was really fun with a touch of sadness as i had to announce to everyone that i'm leaving. Sad... i'll really miss all the brothers in my platoon and those seniors who taught me to realise my potential. All those stupid crappy times we spent together. Hope the parade goes well. Though i'm not participating... =(
And i'll miss pumping my juniors. Don't think i can pump my classmates in Shanghai... can i?

After Cca Ma'am generously offered to treat all the Part D's to Mac. WOW. Special occasion huh... My farewell and Nazhiffi's B'day. =) So we ordered like over $100 worth of food. =) The lady at the counter thought we were nuts...

Well thats my day for you.. Pretty good, if you ask me... =) Just wished that it could have lasted longer. Oh well.

Anyways, my house is so dusty and cluttered with boxes now that whenever i step through the door i start sneezing like mad. Sian. And my room is so bare and empty now... looks so lifeless.
Hope i move into a house in Shanghai soon.

2mr going to Chasper's gym and maybe watching a movie with the ANE camp people... then its off to church for the last time.

Monday might be going to play badminton...

I won't be going back to CCKss anymore... Farewell guys, it was nice knowing you all. Stay in touch.
For me, i have no regrets coming to this school. If i hadn't, i wouldn't have met some people that mattered so much to me.

Dang i'll miss that green, old but cozy school...

2008-12-31T16:51:00.000-08:00

Well i haven't posted for four days, guess i was just too busy with stuff.

These few days i've been busy packing all the stuff i want shipped over to Shanghai, helping my parents move furniture here and there, and doing other random jobs around the house. Searching through my stuff, i realised how much junk i've kept throughout all these years.

Yet i can't bring myself to throw them away. Keychains, letters, odd little pieces of paper... They hold too many memories. Sian i guess i'll be bringing my whole house over to Shanghai.

Well an overview of my past few days...

Saturday i didnt go to church because my dad wanted me to go on Sunday with the family.

Sunday after church i followed my dad and sis to orchard for some christmas shopping. That night we went to my mom's class reunion dinner where i found myself surrounded by loud chatty aunties.

On Monday nothing much happened... Just went to a farewell dinner organised by another of my Mom's friends. Another boring day as usual. =)

Tuesday had Cca, went to school to plan a parade i'm not going to participate in. After that i tagged along with Dexter's family to IMM for lunch, watched him try on some pants. Then i went home for a nap (Too freaking tired) before meeting up with Dexter again at Cck Mrt for the ANE Bbq. Saw a few ppl i recognised, i wonder if i'll see them again in 3 years time...

Well, the ANE Bbq was seriously a letdown.
We spent more then half an hour at the Mrt station waiting for everyone to arrive. Upon reaching the Bbq pit, we had to wait for the food to be cooked. By that time we were almost starving to death. Soon we realised that there wasnt enough food for everyone... Wth i paid $7 for 2 hotdogs and a few sticks of satay. Nvm... we were all feeling so bored, so went to play iceman and block catching with some Bendemeer girls. Sounds Kiddy, but we were all just too damn bored. That was the only fun part of the Bbq. Decided to leave early. What a letdown.

Well, today woke up late and went for lunch with my family. Looks like i'm not allowed to go out that often anymore as i have to help with the packing. That sucks... they could at least let me enjoy my last few days in Singapore..

Oh well, with all the packing and stuff i'm busy with, i didnt have much time to go online or to blog... I guess i'll have LOTS of time to do those things when i'm in Shanghai. I'm getting an extra one month of holidays than you all! My 2nd semester starts on Feb. At least there's a good side to this. Anyways, i doubt anyone will be able to send me off from the airport. Thats because my flight is in the morning, AND its on a school day. Sian, i'll be waving goodbye to no-one then...

Schools gonna re-open soon. I'm still not sure if my parents will allow me to go back for a few days... I really miss the class. So much nonsense happening everyday. =) Home is just so boring...

Well i guess thats all for now, will try to post more the next few days...

Too bad it can't last longer...

2008-12-26T20:17:00.000-08:00

Sian.

My sister fell sick so had to cut my M'sia trip short. After spending one night in M'sia, i returned to Singapore today. Didn't get enough sleep and didn't get a chance to go for some post-christmas shopping. Oh well, i'm sure i'll be able to get cheap goods in China anyways. =/

Feeling really tired now... Totally drained myself last night and today.

Last night i slept at 3-4+, only to be woken up at 8 and told that i'll have to leave Malaysia early... Figures... Reaching singapore, we rushed my sis to the doctor.

After that, went to Chasper's house to play cards and talk rubbish till 7. Didnt know one game of cheat could last so long...

Well thats my day so far... another day gone like that.

Wishing everyone a merry... boxing day? New year's round the corner!
How long would it last?

2008-12-26T01:40:00.000-08:00

Dang... Christmas is over. That was really fast... seems like the days are passing by too quickly for me to fully enjoy them. Another day gone just like that... Sigh. Lost forever...

The end of the year is just round the corner... Another new year ahead, full of new oppurtunities, new hopes and new promises. But also full of new regrets... How things could have been different. And how i can never change them, no matter how much i wish to. Last Christmas, i thought the world was a beautiful and happy place, and i thought that nothing could go wrong. Now, i'm not so sure anymore...

Everyday i wake up with a spinning head and an ache in my heart, feeling so sick of all this..

When will all this end?

2008-12-25T19:01:00.000-08:00

Woo MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

I'm now spending my Christmas in M'sia right now, turns out it isnt as bad as i thought it would be. I just finished playing basketball with my cousins and his friends, now preparing for the upcoming party. Anyone seen my Tux? :) My cousin just moved into a new house, and its HUGE. Like can play hide and seek inside. :)

Well, planning to have lots of fun tonight, tomorrow going to do some post-christmas shopping.
Anyone missing me yet?

Wishing everyone a very Merry CHRISTMAS! Ho HO Ho.

2008-12-24T18:17:00.000-08:00

WOO Its Christmas Eve! That means tomorrow's Christmas!!!

Well like any other year, i'm going to spend my Christmas in Malaysia. Its something like a family tradition, and also because my Grandma's birthday is on Christmas day. That sucks huh, since most people are too lazy to give her two presents... Well like always, I'm going into M'sia to buy stuff! Woo! Christmas sales in Ringgit! And i'm also going to see my annoying cousins... And obese, stuck up, filthy rich uncles... every silver cloud has a dark lining huh? :p Anyways, expect me back on the 27th.

Woah my Christmas week seems to be crammed full of stuff to do... And some people complain that they're bored at home.. Hmm i have the ANE camp Bbq coming up (Woo see stars), Jialun's Christmas dinner thing (Whatever), and i might be organising a new years eve party for the class. Countdown together WOO. But i'll have to check if everyone's supporting of the idea. And Dihao wants to watch Yes man and Kenneth wants to go to Wild wild wet. My holidays are packed.

Anyways, thanks to all who turned up for last night's christmas party. I really enjoyed myself and hope you all liked the food. :) It really cheered me up.. And thanks for the presents.

So... about my day. Well, woke up late and rushed to Cck gym to join kenneth and friends. Then we went to Cck pool for a swim in the freezing water. After that Kenneth, Leslie, Junkai and I went out for lunch at Lot 1... Nothing eventful for a christmas eve... Just saw a few familiar faces in Lot 1, wonder if they've heard the news..

Well upon reaching home, i said hi to my dad who had just got back from Shanghai. Then he started having this long talk with me. After which i went to my room. Nothing unusual till i switched on my lamp the light bulb exploded in my face. I was practically standing there with broken glass raining around me. That was scary. Cleaned the floor and went to watch OnePiece. :)

I'm probably going to some Christmas dinner later at Orchard... so i'll have to be in my best attire and behavior and all that... Sucks. I'd rather watch OnePiece. :) OnePiece rocks my socks.

Wishing everyone a happy christmas eve, and have fun counting down tonight.
cheers.

2008-12-22T21:07:00.000-08:00

Screw it.

Just found out that all the schools in Shanghai either have no vacancy or don't have the education program i'm aiming for.
All but one. Shanghai High school.

Damn it.

The place is like a freaking army camp. When i first saw their rulebook, i mistook it for a textbook. IT'S SO DARN THICK!? Like who the heck cares if People's skirts are more than 3cm above the knees or if my fringe is less than 2cm above my eyebrow. WTH? Stupid school.
Another thing, the school is so run down... the tables and windows are so small and it feels like i'm in the 19th century or something. The lessons are also so traditional, I can't stand it!

AND... IF i want to apply for another school i'll have to take their O'levels just to get in... instead of a typical entrance test, I'LL HAVE TO TAKE THEIR O'LEVELS TO GET INTO THE SCHOOL I WANT. Figures.

I'm getting so sick of this.

Anyways... about my day. Woke up late, went grocery shopping with mom, played Bball with Chas, went home, argued with mom and decorated Christmas tree. Now i have to go wrap some presents and pretend like everyhting is fine and dandy. And that its not my last Christmas here.

So so sick of this.

2008-12-21T22:13:00.000-08:00

WOOT i'm back!

Astro camp seriously freaking rocked my socks. It was so damn FUN. JK, Chasper, Dexter and I were in the same group and we crapped around like crazy... :) The camp was seriously better than i expected due to the fun activities, freedom and some other "stuff". I seriously didnt want it to end... can i go back? Please?

Well, for those of you who backed out or couldn't make it, let me tell you what you missed...

On the first day, Jk, Chasper and I booked in to Ngee Ann poly.. Once i stepped into the room i saw so many familiar faces! Seems like Cck made up the majority of the camp. After paying the camp fee and discovering that it was $5 more than we thought it was, we were divided into our groups. There was the 4 of us, another Hwa Yi guy and 8 other girls. Happy Junkai. After that, we designed our group flag, did some icebreaking games and made some new friends. :) That night, lights out was at 2Am+ after some stargazing. Hard to believe that the girls and boys shared the same bunk...

The next day was similar, but there was more fun and games. I got really dirty and covered in butter and muddy water... :p on top of that, there was a fashion show where we dressed up people as various Tv characters. All the models were guys from Cckss... I laughed till i was nearly rolling on the floor. Also, after that we had to go for a night walk in pairs around the campus after watching a scary movie. The girl i was paired with held my arm so tight that there were nail marks all over it... Lights out that night was at 5Am... shiok huh? Chasper Dexter and I went to the seniors bunk to play cards, and only managed to get few hour's sleep. :) Felt so damn HIGH the next day. 1st time i've been to a camp lights out so late...

Day three we did a skit where Dexter and i made a fool of ourselves and had a cheering competition. After that we were dismissed and we went to have our dinner nearby.

Seriously, this camped rocked. If i have a chance, i want to go again next year!
Woo..

2008-12-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

Well, today i went to Sentosa with Jk, Chas, Dihao, Zhanfei, YongJie, Leslie, Jehiel, Kenneth, Wenjie and Chiiming... We didn't manage to do anything much, because SOMEbody was late. So reached Sentosa at around 2, started playing frisbee in the sea and building sandcastles. Then, we got so bored that we started throwing sand at Jehiel. 10 points for his head. When we got tired of that, a few of us started burying people's slippers. :/

After that, we went to Botak Jones to eat. Seems like i always eat fish and chips when i go there. I'm getting too fat... Well, another day gone just like that. Figures..

Anyway, i'll be going to an Astronomy camp this friday (tomorrow) till this Sunday, so i guess i won't be posting anything for awhile. Probably will write all about it when i come back, or maybe not... I'm getting too lazy these days. Damn, i still haven't packed my bag for tomorrow's camp yet.. Well, shouldnt take long.. i've been to so many camps this holiday, i don't think i need a packing list anymore. Well, tomorrow meeting Chasper and JK for breakfast, then its off too camp. Wheeee. Can't believe Chasper convinced me to go...

I guess thats all for now.

2008-12-17T18:36:00.000-08:00

Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

2008-12-17T17:10:00.000-08:00

So... My blog...

After all this while, i finally decided to make one... wow.
Wonder why, huh?
Well, the main reason i made this blog is because I'm leaving. I'm leaving Singapore real soon... And i guess i don't want people to forget me or lose track of what's going on in my life... Which will get interesting the next 3 years...

So i make this blog.
:)

Anyway, I'm still a newbie in this, so i might take awhile to get used to the ropes here. Hope i don't screw anything up, won't be able to call Chasper for help in Shanghai... Anyway, many thanks to Chasper for helping me create this Blog (He did everything while i watched). And thanks to Chii Ming for entertaining us while we created it. You should go listen to his singing sometime, its amazing. :p

so.. i guess thats all for now. Looking forward to the Sentosa trip 2mr, wish some people could go though. :(

2008-12-17T16:57:00.000-08:00

Wow hard to believe i finally made a blog... :P